If there’s one thing that frustrates me more than anything else it’s how inconvenient my motivation is.
I am currently “free” to do whatever I want. I’m home with both boys, but they’re both napping. And I have absolutely zero motivation or inspiration to do anything productive.
When will I have the motivation, you wonder?
More than likely, when Cam wants a snack or Tucker needs to be rocked to sleep… Maybe after Nick falls asleep and I’m lying there, wide awake, unable to turn my brain off… When I’m in the midst of cooking dinner… In the seven minutes I spend in the shower when my brain is most active… Maybe when I’m driving and my mind wanders after passing the same houses and landmarks that cause me to turn to autopilot…
But when I’m absolutely free to do whatever I want? When I’m caught up with housework and my boys are asleep and Nick is at work? Nope. I don’t have the desire to do a thing. And it frustrates me to no end!
At least I can vent through my words and hopefully spark some inspiration to accomplish something by doing some writing… We’ll see!